A little over two years ago, I learned that my friend Abby’s husband had passed away in his sleep of an undiagnosed heart condition, leaving behind his beautiful wife and 6 darling daughters under the age of 10. I have paid careful attention to
Abby’s journey and feel blessed to have even the tiniest window into her experience. Last week my friend Haley Jo passed away in similarly unexpected fashion, from seemingly the very same undiagnosed “enlarged heart” condition. At 36 years old, she leaves behind a husband and 5 children, ages 14 to 1.
The similarities between the situations have not been lost on me. I have pondered the irony of their heart conditions, recognizing that in life both of these amazing people had been often described by those who knew them as generous and “big-hearted”. Crying myself to sleep as I pled with the Lord to offer comfort to their grieving families felt eerily familiar as well. Faith in a glorious afterlife and enduring family relationships can help strengthen the grief-stricken survivors as they travel along their tender journey toward solace and healing, but it doesn’t completely eliminate the pains of mortal grief and sorrow or the day-to-day struggle of their new reality. Hearts have been broken and expectations are being entirely rewritten; their lives will never be the same.
I’ve (rather predictably) contemplated my own mortality and asked myself a thousand times throughout the last week, “am I ready to meet my Maker?” (Is that shrill vibrato “NOooooo!!!” echoing in your ears too, or is it just me???) I’ve thought of all the things I keep putting off until “tomorrow”, with a fresh and thought-provoking reminder that tomorrow doesn’t always come.
Haley and I taught together as volunteer preschool teachers in Voronezh, Russia way back in 1995 for a semester. I will always remember her as witty, quirky, optimistic, grounded, comfortable in her own skin, and very kind. I am grateful for the example she set for me and the lovely life that she lived.
“I love doing laundry every day,
I love doing laundry in every way.
I love finding laundry which has not been done,
Smashed in the dresser of my adorable son.
I love towels used, then dropped on the floor,
Damp and dirty for me to wash once more.
The very best mornings are when someone’s wet the bed,
The sweet stench of pee makes me want to kiss their head.
If you take off your socks, please shove them under the couch,
A great laundry surprise, lucky me, I’m no slouch!
When you clean your room, don’t put clothes away,
Throw them in the hamper, clean or dirty, it’s okay!
And if you get cold, please don’t wear a sweater,
Drag a blanket from the closet—or a sleeping bag…even better.
Whatever you’re doing, please don’t cut back,
I want laundry all the time, give me no slack!
Hey--it’s raining outside, go roll in the mud,
Of course it’s okay, go get dirty, bud!”
~~Written by Haley Morales, 2009
Love you, Haley Jo.